Thread:TWDFan630/@comment-4105222-20150808034716

Hello all. As you may know, on Aug 7 2015, I said what I've been wanting to say to Nathan for a good half-year now. Been bottling the shit out of it so today I marched into his wiki to send him my piece. It's already been deleted, and I've been banned from the wiki, so I'm here to call bullshit on him in his favorite wiki, where I can't be touched. I also hoped to post something big the day of his leave but I couldn't find the words that time.

First piece of proof: The automessage says this is the first thing I posted on the wiki. If you click the link, you will get a really sad case of denial--I mean this.

Second piece: This picture shows the date of my post.

Third: Uncropped version.

I did this in part of TheFlyingDutchman owning the shit out of him with good timing and delivery, but sadly, his comment, too, got deleted. Just know that you were on his turf and that he's really at the point of denial by now.

You will get why I went through all this trouble from the ranting shit I done did.

Without further ado, here's the rant I left, unedited:

I'm pretty sure this is gonna get deleted.... just like all the other things that easily contradicted your words in this here base of yours, but I'm gonna try to stay ahead of it. Also, if you delete this, then I already won, and you're gonna miss out on some insight.

Firstly, I never wanted to do this. From a psychological perspective there's no denying you got issues, and as a user who's learned a few things about that, I wanted to respect it, leave it alone. But I've stood idly by way too long; long enough to make me hesitate on this respect. It's been a fucking long time in my book--two, three years? Putting up with that shit? I just can't do it anymore, man. I'll be able to feel better about this if I tell you my thoughts in the best place possible.

It sucks that I let it play out like this. Shoulda talked to you from the start. The shit you pull in this place? The places you create? Gotta admit, it pisses me off. Why? Because I've never seen a dude with denial as big as this. Denial's your best tool. I think it's what keeps you going. But it's a denial so wretched, it creates more problems. Denial's never going to bring peace no matter how you measure it. But your type of denial... it's the fucked up kind.

Yes, you got mental health issues. I assumed as much, and you've mentioned it a few times. Kid, for the love of God, of all things omnipotent, sentient, seek mental help. Do not use us, or others, as your remedy to this problem because it will only get worse from here. Fuck it if your family or relatives set you real-life limitations in seeking help; do this for your own health. Fuck them. Fuck us. Go seek help right the fuck now. Start somewhere on your own, if you can't rely on others. Call a hotline, get a walk-in appointment, talk to the school counselor.

Do not, for fuck's sake, use it as a ticket to excuse you from the impressions you get from us. This is the internet, boy. Mental health is difficult to gauge through text alone (unless you get extended time to observe it--oh wait), and not everyone will understand it right away.

With the shit you've pulled from us, your mental health as an excuse can't work anymore. We won't just turn nice the next day because you mentioned you got autism day before. You and UFSW have a history, and an unfriendly one at that, kid. You've had your share of apologies, but you've also broken these apologies countless times. How the fuck can we trust you now? How the fuck can we still be nice to you? Go, go find a new crowd, but if you won't change, shit's gonna end the same way, maybe worse if you don't change.

I don't want to call your mental health issues a ruse (got all the proof already, anyway), but if it is, then... then it was fun, kid. Super fun in dicking around with you, because we, too, got our laughs.

You're too goddamn hostile. You solve conflict with more conflict. The internet is a shittier place to socialize in than real life; and if you can't do it right, then it's gonna get worse. You gotta get the fuck out of the internet and look for a better alternative if that's ever the case. And no, I don't think this wiki is a better alternative, because this was built entirely to spite UFSW. Yes, your fucking governing body is an army of sockpuppets. This goes back to my point of seeking mental help because this is a real unhealthy way of coping (borderline multi-personality disorder). If you've managed to snag some users, then hooray for you, but that still doesn't deny the fact of existing socks.

Seriously. I'm gonna come down to this: stop creating a world of your own. Stop being hostile. Seek mental help in the most accessible way possible, for starters. I'm not being a jerk; as a guy who's studied a thing or two about the thinking process, I am being sincere here and looking out for your best interests while I still can.

Honestly, with your tenure in UFSW, I've actually grown more concerned about you. But, since you're Nathan, this concern won't mean jack-shit, because I've probably just turned into your enemy. It's online, so I don't fucking know--but what I do know is that I'll feel better posting this. I just want you to know the truth, coming from someone who's seen you in your earliest UFSW days. If this doesn't work, then I tried. I fucking tried.

This also means that you won't be getting any chances from me anymore. You're too much of a tumor to deal with, and it's not worth my time. Here's hoping my harshness won't fall into deaf ears (or in this case, blind eyes).

There's a community out there for you, Nathan. No, not this one; this is built out of lies. There's a true, real one with actual people in it. It's not UFSW. It's somewhere else. Go, look for it. And while at it, find a way to deal with your mental problems in a healthy, non-hostile way.

I reiterate again; I did this out of the benefit of myself. There has been so many things left unsaid by me to the travesty that is Nathan, and it felt good venting it all out. Nathan may be a boulder of denial, but as long as this has been released from my mind, I get closure. 